Journey to Anubis

My trip to, what I would call, a space where you dive deep down into yourself and are revealed the many secrets of the universe, started September 10th on Isla Vista, Santa Barbara. I knew I wanted to take those magic mushrooms but really wasn't expecting to tonight. It went a little something like, “What should we do?” and I replied “Let's do shrooms!” so we did. It took us about 3 hours because Isla Vista College drug dealers aren't the most reliable in a pinch. The sun was on its last hours of sunlight so we had to get them quick. We took them at the beach house on the cliff and made our way to go get pizza only about a 5 minutes walk away. 30 minutes pass by and colors start to get more vibrant as if someone was editing a picture and turned up the saturation times 2. And then the anxiety hit me.

I knew to expect it because I was told to expect it. It wasn't much, but it was enough to be like hey let's go outside and not have pizza. Walking back to the house we crossed the road and that’s when things started to move for real. Isla Vista has these flashing crosswalks and, looking down, it was almost like the crosswalk was moving underneath me like a viscous fluid moves when you twirl it around. We get back to the house so happy. As happy as you’d expect on shrooms.

Fast forward to night time. I go outside to were I hear house music playing and I'm wrapped up in a blanket to stay warm. I look out into the horizon which is pitch black now cuz the sun has fully set and I see hundreds of what you could say “scary faces”, but I wasn't scared I was actually accepting it wanting more to come to see how far I could make my mind work and how vivid I could make the images appear. It was almost like I was controlling them based on how I flexed my pupil.

I end up lying down on a chair outside with my feet up on another chair just in front of me and look straight up. The house music definitely played a part in what I saw. The faster the beat, the more sporadic the visuals were. At some point its was a nice slow beat and the stars seemed to peek through like there was a black sheet with holes in it and the stars were little lights that would go in an out of the holes. The sky would make a waving motion like I was underwater and the night sky was the surface with rolling waves.

At this time I could have sat there forever because I could believe what I was seeing - it was the definition of pure bliss. However it was until I would say my “guardian” came forth that I really felt like there was some other power out there.

Anubis the god of the underworld and his ancient egyptian hounds came forth to me while I was staring up at the stars. It was almost like he acknowledged my presence and how he could see me and I could see him. He was shaped by the stars with more and more coming forth to make him more detailed and more apparent. At this point I felt my body rising up out of my chair - I know crazy but that's what it felt like.

I just completely let go of everything and in that most all my senses were directed towards my sight and and sound what I was seeing. The muffled house music playing from the neighboring house with some college dude playing fortnight really intensified and guided what I was able to see. So thank to him I guess. Anubis came through and when he was in full sight he was pulsating and it was though the stars were on a fixed track circling around the detail of his face and hood.

As he receded I was almost left with this sense of relief and no worries mindset. I was so content to just sit there and reflect on what I just saw.

People say that shrooms will strip away your ego. As a proud Leo I will say you're left off with this feeling - a happiness and complete vulnerability. Any shred of self loathing, negative thoughts, or boundaries you felt are completing taken away. It’s one of those feelings that you want forever but must come to understand that at the end of the day you did just take shrooms and all that it only came from taking shrooms. As much as I want to say, “yes, take 2 g of shrooms everyday!” It is definitely something I believe should only be taken once in awhile at least at that level.